gotta calm down!
today one of my JTEs told me that one of the two students that I’m sposed to help with speech contest would be meeting me on the 30th and the other on the 31st. last week she told me the 29th and 30th. I thought she changed the schedule. nope, she just told me wrong and so I was out of the office when the student came by and I felt like such a jerk. but the teacher, though not angry I guess, insisted that she said today… she’s done something like this before too.
and then a friend just asked to borrow my bike. I said yes and then couldn’t find the key and they had to take a taxi. just feeling like a mega jerk today. also a little ill? what’s going on in the universe?
oh and bonus, JTE who’s going to America for six months and didn’t tell me til last week told me that a bunch of people died in a plane in Taiwan after I told him that’s where I’m going this summer… like…
thinking ahead for Halloween cause suddenly care/feel motivated: if I get a white wig, which shouldn’t bee too hard, I could be Storm and that shit would be so real
gotta snap back to desk warming reality for tomorrow, though I really don’t want to. and I know I just talked about how much fun I had this past weekend, cause I did! but still can’t shake this creeping feeling of losing touch with everyone cause sometimes I felt like I was an after thought or that “friend” you take pity on and begrudgingly let tag along.
I miss having relationships and conversations where I didn’t have to try
Fuji Rock 2K14
was fucking amazing. and I’m so glad I went.
admittedly, when I first heard about it, I wasn’t interested, I didn’t know what it was, didn’t think myself a music festival sort of person. but it was amazing and such a great experience! this is a bit long, so read more under the cut!
just got back from Fuji Rock! will make a post later